O Most High, you willed to create me a poet and now it is time for me to present a report.

My heart is full of gratitude though I got acquainted with the miseries of that profession.

By practicing it, we learn too much about the bizarre nature of man.

Who, every hour, every day and every year is possessed by self-delusion.

A self-delusion when building sandcastles, collecting postage stamps, admiring oneself in a mirror.

Assigning oneself first place in sport, power, love, and the getting of money.

All the while on the very border, on the fragile border beyond which there is a province of mumblings and wails.

For in every one of us a mad rabbit thrashes and a wolf pack howls, so that we are afraid it will be heard by others.

Out of self-delusion comes poetry and poetry confesses to its flaw.

Though only by remembering poems once written is their author able to see the whole shame of it.

And yet he cannot bear another poet nearby, if he suspects him of being better than himself and envies him every scrap of praise.

Ready not only to kill him but smash him and obliterate him from the surface of the earth.

So that he remains alone, magnanimous and kind toward his subjects, who chase after their small self-delusions.

How does it happen then that such low beginnings lead to the splendor of the word?

I gathered books of poets from various countries, now I sit reading them and an astonished.

It is sweet to think that I was a companion in an expedition that never ceases, though centuries pass away.

An expedition not in search of the golden fleece of a perfect form but as necessary as love.

Under the compulsion of the desire for the essence of the oak, of the mountain peak, of the wasp and of the flower of nasturtium.

So that they last, and confirm our hymnic song against death.

And our tender thought about all who lived, strived, and never succeeded in naming.

For to exist on the earth is beyond any power to name.

Fraternally, we help each other, forgetting our grievances, translating each other into other tongues, members, indeed, of a wandering crew.

How then could I not be grateful, if early I was called and the incomprehensible contradiction has not-diminished my wonder?

At every sunrise I renounce the doubts of night and greet the new day of a most precious delusion.

Supposing we could just go on and on as two voracious in the days apart as well as when we side by side (the many ways we do that) well! I would consider then perfection possible, or else worthwhile to think about. Which is to say I guess the costs of long term tend to pile up, block and complicate, erase away the accidental, temporary, near thing/pulsebeat promises one makes because the chance, the easy new, is there in front of you. But still, perfection takes some sacrifice of falling stars for rare. And there are stars, but none of you, to spare.

I recall everything, but more than all, Words being nothing now, an ease that ever Remembers her to my unfailing fever, How she came forward to me, letting fall Lamplight upon her dress till every small Motion made visible seemed no mere endeavor Of body to articulate its offer, But more a grace won by the way from all Striving in what is difficult, from all Losses, so that she moved to discover A practice of blood, as the gulls hover, Winged with their life, above the harbor wall, Tracing inflected silence in the tall Air with a tilt of mastery and quiver Against the light, as the light fell to favor Her coming forth; this chiefly I recall.

It is part of pride, guiding the hand At the paino in the splash and the passage Of sacred dolphins, making numbers human By sheer extravagance that can command Pythagorean heavens to spell their message Of some unlooked-for peace, out of the common; Taking no thought at all that man and woman, Lost in the trance of lamplight, felt the presage Of the unbidden terror and bone hand Of gracelessness, and the unspoken omen That yet shall render all, by its first usage, Speechless, inept, and totally unmanned