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Sunday, 11. August 2002

Unamed Wino alias I.



Walking up Ponce I am behest
by winos and whores, some ask me for
a couple of quaters to get drunk and
some ask me if I need a hit of cocaine.
My feet hurt from walking too much
all afternoon, the sky is red, the blood is
red and the usual symbolisms for love are red.
But the sky will change soon, it's already
changing as I write this, beyond the hill I see
the quater moon and a star to keep it company.
That star makes me feel cold, that star makes me
jealous of the the pair of cats "in love" I saw today,
makes me jealous of the guy who was following
a whore with sagging breasts into a seedy hotel,
his ten dollar bill in her hand.

I try to forget by beating my body into a pulp,
my legs vibrate wonderfully like violin strings,
a tiredness raises up as a convective current,
it tries to sing "La la la", a lullbay to ease me
into sleep, so that I can wake up again tomorrow
morning and begin screaming in the bathtub as
super hot water scalds my skin.
I know I shouldn't punish myself, I know I should take it easy,
but I don't know how I should begin to put up
legs on the table or how to snag easy dates that
will later take me home, feed me with their hands
and put me to sleep. Maybe I should call the hotline
to Dr Death, "Hello hello, how much does it cost
for the injection and how much does it cost for the pill
or super fun dates that involve zero commitment?"

FLASH BACK

And then in the Borders bookstore I stopped by,
I know I know it's a wrong place to have gone into
even if I was dying of thrist, for from all the aisles
arose a digre composed by Pablo Neruda, "Oh asshole,don't you
know love is so short and forgetting is so long? And if
you don't buy a book of poems I wrote." Everything is sold these days, sales pitches. I am so and so, I have this piece of paper that says I am the Lord,
my Father in Heaven gave me this degree so I am
super expensive and no you don't qualify enough to be loved.
I stand there and try to have a conversation with Pablo, he is a
bald guy and maybe because of that the light reflects off
his head and gives him a halo. I say, "Motherfucker, you are such
a poor glue and such a pathetic waste of money. I can't
believe that I once imitated you and drank you like wine,
maybe it was the post coital bliss that scrambled my brains
into surpy mush and made me exclaim that you are a genuis!"

Now when each of my veins burns as if
they are atom bombing a thousand Hiroshimas
and a thousand Nagasakais, I see the easy contrivance
and the blinkers that covered my eyes. I used you
like a cheap condom to belive what I wanted to belive then.
But then why am I fighting you?
For aren't we in the same esteemed company now, on the
same side of the fence, ready to be put away, to be given a
number by the Nazi Love Police and set up to be fried in the
ultra modern oven called USA? Don't be afraid it's not that
bad, see these scars just beneath this skin, I was done rare
the previous time, then the Allies came in and hauled my ass
out of here. But really they weren't Allies, they were phantoms,
say shall I sing songs from Phantom of the Opera?
"You alone can make my song take flight. It's over now,
THE MUSIC OF THE NIGHT." The curtain falls after this,
I know dammit, I know, I saw this. I will sing this
song as we are both swiftly purged and archived. What will be
the file number, five six or seven? Who knows? There is enough
junk in the world already, take me for example, a disposable.
Take you for example, an old guy whose sales increase around
Valentine's Day and now long dead.Very much disposable. So can your
fucking digre and let me be. And no I will not visit that aisle
where I sat one rainy night reading you, I prefer reading MAD today
as I slowly go mad myself. I will laugh and scare the chicks who sit
around reading "Yoga for Dummies" and similar junk.

Present

JesUSAves.
Keys covered with blood.
Goodnight.




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