Confessions Of An Addict
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Whenever he enters a new city, his roving eye keeps a running record of its libraries and its bookstores - their location and their hours. He makes it a point to spend an hour or so in the great buildings that are the libraries of such cosmopoli even if his visit is brief. Wasn't it Borges who spoke for him in a line that said, "I have always imagined that Paradise will be a kind of library"?
Take for example, the blissful nap he took in the jewel like, and strangely empty, atrium on the top floor of the Chicago Public Library, his head resting on the thick Oxford A.K. Ramanujan he had picked from the stacks or the delightful morning he spent in a nook of the New York Public Library, reading about Persian heroes and villains in an illustrated version of Ferdowsi's "Shahnameh" or the noon he spent in "The Library of Congress in Washington DC gazing at sepia photographs from the WPA Project, circa the Great American Depression. He even knows the place he would definitely spend time in when he enters another city, such as the British Library in London. In idle reveries, he also wonders if he is oddly weird for thinking how wonderful it would be to propose to someone in the stacks of a great library instead of, say, on a Parisian quay along the River Seine at sunset? Marrying, obviously to him, would entail the marriage of libraries as well.
[2] He shouldn't be here; he knows that. But then it is not his fault if booksellers in this city desire to sell books until midnight. He merely is here, taking a break from the rainy-wet snow that had begun to fall outside. Now what harm can there be in browsing for a bit really?
Let's begin with this central rack. O, how lovely are these Vintage series of books on writers; perfect even for time pressed readers like him. Here is Vintage Naipaul, Vintage Atwood, Vintage Langston Hughes, Vintage Joan Didion. Pick them up; furtively paw the insides and the covers; put them back reluctantly.
But then o, in Vintage Barry Lopez, this first paragraph of an essay titled "Flight" is beautiful. And since it becomes evident that Lopez is writing about the mechanics of air cargo, he is justified in buying this book for professional reasons even if these are literary essays devoid of any reference to the traveling salesman problem. Since one book is already in hand, there can't be much harm, is there, in venturing deeper into the store? Besides the moratorium, the cure doesn't involve a ban on snorting poetry.
Ah! William Carlos Williams's "Selected Poems" - of course he can be read in the many excellent anthologies sitting unread on the shelves but, but wasn't Carlos Williams the poet who taught him to eat the saved plums just because they were "so sweet and so cold". Ok, now he has two too many on hand. Time to exit the store. Time to go home and beg forgiveness for these transgressions on the bended knee - if only space can be made to kneel among boxes of books in the first place.
But wait, what is that thick luscious red book? O, Cervantes with his most excellent gentleman Don Quixote. Did he ever read these adventures in full? Non! Now how can he even think of even writing a novel without reading this, this mother and father of all modern novels? But, but, Senor Addict, you have already crossed your holy limit for the night. Who are you, you giant monster, even if to a part of my eye you suspiciously look like a windmill?
He rushes to the cash register waving these three books in circles above his head, and then out of the closing doors into a street polished with snow
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Night Music
Sachal Vasandani's music was blogged about on Sepia Mutiny - and as the post had mentioned jazz, I went running to find his very lovely music. The brother got mad skillz, and more than the above song, the song "Storybook Fiction" would have been perfect for tonight's mood only if I could have found it in full.
This chance discovery also made me remember an afternoon from way back in late 2001, when I first heard the music of Norah Jones in the Ponce de Leon Borders Bookstore in Atlanta on one of my weekend pilgrimages, and knew I had struck gold - all this way way before she hit big time. I wouldn't be surprised if Sachal repeats Norah's trick.
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A Ghazal After A Villanelle
"We think by feeling. What is there to know?
I hear my being dance from ear to ear.
I wake to sleep, and take my waking slow".
~ Theodore Roethke
After those blizzard-obliterated dawns in which waking & walking was slow A clear moonlit night arrives in which these feet seem to know where to go.
After seasons spent shuttling - map-less, frost-masked - between cities of snow, I turn into her lane, and seem to know this is where I should have been ages ago.
After all she seems to know how to strike each note of your heart’s arpeggio. But do you, breathless Sashi, know how this emphatic YES to her should go?
for N.
Note: the track I was listening to while attempting to make this ghazal out of my scribbles
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